Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Janessa's Name Inked

My sister in law, Yajaira, stopped by our home last week. While she was here she asked for a copy of Janessa’s memorial program. She said she needed one of the quotes from it. I got one out and handed it to her. She then went on to say she was getting a tattoo & it took me awhile to realize she was getting a tattoo in memory of Janessa. I was speechless. I could not convey my feelings because I was too shocked. She was leaving on vacation to Florida the next day & I assumed she would be getting the tattoo there. She had one done on her last vacation there.

That was until she showed up at our house late that evening with this on her back:




The quote says “Loved with a love beyond telling, missed with a grief beyond all tears”. Underneath it has her name. To know that she is loved so much it so heartwarming to me. I remember her showing up at the hospital the night Janessa died. I was in labor and refused any visitors at that time. I could hear her sobs through my door. She came the next day & held Janessa. I remember seeing everyone’s look of devastation on their faces. I had never witnessed pain such as that.

Janessa is a part of this family. I feel at times I work so hard to explain how she was real, she was a person, she was & is loved & how very missed she is. I think I am getting to a point now where I know who loves her & who feels her absence. I’m also realizing that despite my efforts there are some who don’t & will never understand. There is not much else I can do at this point. I know who will carry her in their hearts.

How amazing that she has people here dedicated to her memory. What that does for my heart is indescribable.
 

10 comments:

Jessica said...

that is beautiful :)

caitsmom said...

Wow. I'm speechless.

Emily said...

Wow. That's amazing. And what a beautiful tattoo.

Tina said...

That is so beautiful! Reading this brought tears to my eyes because that is all any of us want is for others to remember our sweet babies.

junnebug97 said...

That is so beautiful! How lucky you are to have people who love her and want to carry her memory on. We don't have anyone in our family or friends like that, it must really mean a lot to you.

Jill said...

Oh wow, how beautiful!

Just Breathe said...

It's beautiful and so very loving of her.

Lisette said...

I love that!!! It is so beautiful. What a beautiful way to show her love, amazing.

Holly said...

I love the quote and that she did that!

With Out My Punkin said...

beautiful, Janessa is apart of your family and loved very much!

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