Friday, September 24, 2010

An Ordinary Day

Today I woke up and got JJ ready and off to school.

I did housework and prepared dinner.

I picked up my grandparents.

I stopped at the bank.

We ate lunch.

I brought them to the grocery store.

We picked up JJ from school.

I dropped my grandparents off at their home.

I brought JJ to his doctor appointment.

We stopped at the pharmacy for his medication.

We went to YMCA to sign him up for flag football.

We visited Janessa’s grave.

I visited my daughter at the cemetery.

JJ stood above his little sister’s grave.

Maybe if I type it & say it enough it will feel completely real.

This is my life.

1 year 4 months 1 week & three days later there are days I still cannot believe this is my life.

This should not be any parent’s reality.

But it is. It is mine. And I don’t want it to be.
 
This is an ordinary day of a parent who has buried their child.
 
I don't know if it will ever feel ordinary to me.
 
 

7 comments:

Dawn Brown said...

It's strange that I didn't catch anything unusual in your day until the very end when you pointed it out...and then it hit me that our "normal" isn't all that normal. We live it, it's incorporated into our lives...but it didn't jump out at me when I read your list of daily activities, which was like a glass of cold water being poured on me.

It's a revelation to me how much my own reality and definition of "normal" has changed now that I've read this.

Wow. That's all I have to say. Thank you for putting things in perspective...from one loss mom to another.

xxxx

Sarita Boyette said...

I'm so sorry, Malory. Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you. xoxoxoxo

Michelle said...

So sorry =***( Sending you hugs.

The Blue Sparrow said...

You are so right about this being the life of a grieving parent. I dont think it'll ever feel real to me either. (((HUGS)))

Jen said...

still so surreal here too..**hugs**

Amanda said...

Hey Mal, I just wanted to thank you for being there for me and inspiring me to start my own blog. I always look forward to reading what you're up to and value your strength and viewpoint on this path through life. I acknowldged you with a little blog award. You can see at my blog: http://owlandleaf.blogspot.com/.
Much love, Amanda

Holly said...

Having to stand at the cemetery to see your child should never have to be a reality.

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