My 26th birthday is tomorrow. I am not in a celebrating mood by any means. This past week has been one of the hardest since the beginning but that is all besides the point of this post and for another day....
I was given an early birthday present from one of my closest friends a couple weeks ago. It was one of the most beautiful gifts I have ever received.
My friend Amy wrote me a poem about Janessa for me. I conveyed to her how much I loved it but I don’t think she will ever know how much that poem means to me.
She is a mom. She has a son the same age as my son. I know she feels my pain. I know she tries to imagine what it would be like to lose a child. I know she is one of the few people who “get it” even though she has never herself lost a child. That alone means so much to me.
So Amy, thank you again and that thank you comes from the depth of my soul.
Here is the poem:
I feel for you for what it costs, from the bottom of my soul.
I couldn’t imagine being in your shoes, not even for one day,
Because I don’t know what I would do if the Lord took mine away.
As a Mom or a Dad this is what we fear,
To have something taken away that we love so dear.
From the beginning of knowing whether it’s a boy or a girl,
We already have their futures planned to unravel and unfold.
To see them off to kindergarten with their lunchbox in their hands,
To wait for them to come home and see how their day has been.
To watch them go to high school and attend the senior prom,
To see them graduate with honors the proudest Dad and Mom.
Don’t think of Janessa as gone, but away for just a little while,
She’ll be welcoming you one day with her sweet angel smile.
All the pain your feeling now slowly God will mend.
Just know that if you need someone,
You’ll always have a friend.